Sunday, 25 March 2012

XBM

Hey readers! WHussuuuup!!! Hahaha! I'm kinda crazy today... It's been a while since I updated my blog. Today I'm gonna tell you what had happened to me a few weeks ago...

As you all know, during the holidays I was having problem with feelings... You remember the girl that tried to flirt with me? Yeah... She's now my girl. To shorten things up... That night she cheered me up a bit....but still...the effect was big. She's a chineese girl. She's really nice to me and there's something about her that makes me think that she is the loyal type ^_^.

Honestly now I feel better and I'm so happy to have her by my side. Seriously I hope you guys don't mind coz I wanna say that I Love Her So Much! And of course...I love my family too... Coz they were the one that taught me how to treat a girl and be gentle with girls. Thank you my sisters! ^_^ Love you guys.

Now...I just keeps praying that my relationship with her will never be ended. Amin... ^_^

Friday, 16 March 2012

I'm a Liar. Oh my T__T



Well, another day another story...

Yesterday she asked me "I knew it, you're not okay right?". Yes, I'm not okay. But I said to her that I'm okay. I LIED. Don't get me wrong...I really don't want her to feel guilty for me... Coz if she's guilty, automatically I'll feel the same way too. Then came the night where I just feel that I can't lie to her anymore. So I told her that what I said during the day was a lie.

Yusoff,you're such a fucking liar! Awman~I hate myself now.

Anyway...the thing is, I still love her and I don't mind if our relationship is just friends but I just don't want her to feel guilty for me... That's all. That's what I want her to feel. Not feeling guilty at all. Readers, to be honest, I think I'm the one who should be blame on this... I mean...I should've response to her text by not showing any sign of disappointment eventhough I AM a few days ago. But it has happened. I can do nothing about it. Coz I don't like people being miserable because of me. That's why I lied to her.

Now...I hope you readers can help me to make things all well like before... I mean... What should I do to make things right again? Where she didn't feel guilty towards me...

Anyway, I'm sure you readers are wondering about her boyfriend, right? Well... I'm happy about it coz he's the only one right now that can make her happy (actually I'm neither happy nor sad). I hope he will never make her cry.

Tuesday, 13 March 2012

It Ends Tonight

So...hey! Whussup! Guys, I just text her a few moments ago. Actually I saw her relationship status on her facebook profile and I found out that she's already in a relationship with a guy. I thought she was just joking. So I asked her about that just now. And It turned out....she was not joking and she had been that guy's girlfriend for about a month ago. 

Man~ I waited for quite a long time for her answer. T_T... and it turned out to be like this? I'm so dissapointed. But I don't want to tell her that I'm so sad about it. So I just insert a fake laugh in my text to make her feel better.

She doesn't know how I defend myself from falling in love with a girl that tried to flirt with me and forcing me to ask her about the answer. It was such a test from Allah... All I can do now is....is...hmmm...nothing actually. But anyway we still friends. Still, I'm feelin akward eventhough as a friend. Well...it ends tonight.